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Friday, February 19, 2010

The three of us

She is exhausted. She was waking at 5am every day earlier this week. She has since replaced that with midnight parties she keeps inviting me too. Her days are full of meltdowns and standoffs. Mine too.

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He is not himself. He wants to be held all the time. He lies face down on the floor hollering whenever he is frustrated. He whines and yells and cries. I cry too.

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I am empty. Each day this week has drained me a little bit more until I stand here today devoid of patience and understanding. Tolerance and compassion. Humour and perspective. Hope.

11 comments:

  1. Ugh, sounds like such a terrible week. Hope your weekend brings some cheer and some good, sleep-filled nights.

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  2. Get a babysitter and get out! Or have someone watch the kids while you take a long nap. You are all tired and need a break. Once you've had one everything will be so much better. I've been there and done it.
    I hope things get better soon for all you of.

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  3. Sorry to hear you are having a rough week. We did too, worst one I've had so far. My blood pressure was through the roof. I try to be calm but it's so hard. *le sigh* I hope next week is better.

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  4. I was in your shoes so many times when my girls were little. Hope things turn around soon. It really doesn't last forever even though it feels like it's going to.

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  5. @Lynn - Me too!

    @Sparkless - I actually tried to find a babysitter but the one we used last time was busy and another is out of town. No luck!

    @Shannon - Calm is hard. I hope it gets better for you too!

    @Finola - I try to remind myself that this too shall pass. Sometimes that works. Not today.

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  6. Hope things improve. In a dramatic way.

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  7. (((HUGS))) That's all I can offer right now.

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  8. I'm sorry :( I wish I could help.

    Since you couldn't get a sitter can you get out on your own this weekend?

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  9. After a couple of hard days, my mom told me that when you think you are empty, there is always a little bit more. Why don't you recharge with some YOU time.

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  10. OK seriously, your writing is just so beautiful and soft. Like a whisper. I love how you use few words to convey what's going on. It's a real gift and talent.

    Have you always been good at writing? I have some blog posts brewing about the whole thing of writing/blogging.

    "Her days are full of meltdowns and standoffs. Mine too." DIVINE

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  11. Hugs... wish I could do more.

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