Excited to start trying to add to our family.
To give the girl a brother or sister.
Just like last time my period returned
fourteen months after a baby was born.
Only my third period in the last four years.
Now it is back.
Back for good.
Back to stay.
Back until another life
change takes it away.
With its return I mark the
end of my childbearing years.
No more pregnancies
no more births
no more newborns.
I can feel myself moving
the world of babies into life with kids
All that awaits us.
I don't morn.
Every month for over twenty years
my period was a constant.
Often accompanied by intense emotions
Like my pregnancies,
but without the nausea and vomiting.
And without a baby at the end.
It is as if the pause button has been released and
my body is returning to itself.
But now I am different.
I had learnt to manage
with the rollercoaster my period
created each month.
I hope I can again.